> Graceful <

You are so weak. Give up to grace.
The ocean takes care of each wave till it gets to shore.
You need more help than you know-

I went through a rough patch this past Sunday competing in the Cornhusker State Games Gravel Grinder event. Something really challenging happened that pushed a whole bunch of my buttons at once, pushing my mind and emotions into overdrive, turning what should have been a nine-hour 111.9 mile ride into nearly a twelve-hour 140+ mile ride (single speed).

I’m certain that many of you are familiar with the term “crisis reveals character” or something similar?

Whenever I get really upset about something, my emotions start to simmer and I secretly worry about my unsavory character boiling over, my dark side so to speak. Is this upset, bitchy person really me? Most of the time I like to think “things” easily slide off my back. That I’m a composed, chill sort of dude. Although when I become upset by a really difficult, or unfair situation, I sometimes contemplate or say things that I would never normally allow myself to think or say out loud.

Thankfully I don’t get so far gone that I rant in inappropriate situations, or to the wrong innocent person. However, I still say and think unsavory things that I wish I hadn’t thought or said.

Forget it – Dude.” This crisis reveals character concept is complete and utter rubbish! When I am really upset? I’m not at my best, and I spent 30 miles (ish), cycling  in horrid conditions this past Sunday, figuring this out.

Daily Meditation:

Somewhere between Burr, NE and 134th and Pella Rd (Google this if you are bored) I gave the gift Grace to myself. From the start to mile 80, I was mess, a train wreck oozing with bitching and moaning. Its amazing what a little grace, cold water, kind and compassionate company can do to restore your true self.

CultFit Grace

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9 Comments on “> Graceful <”

  1. Sandra says:

    It was a tough day, hotter than hades. Glad you could figure things out!

    Ah grace. Elusive as it is beautiful.

  2. So Sorry you had a rough time. Sounds miserable.
    I recently went back and deleted half of one of my race reports because I was embarrassed by my obnoxious ranting and complaining.
    We’re not always the people we want to be.
    You pulled yourself out of the ugliness much quicker than I did :)

    • CultFit says:

      If I may make a suggestion … If you can, try to keep the half of the race report you deleted close to your heart. It may not mean much now, or even years from now. These moments are dense with meaning when we pause to reflect on them – Good or Bad.
      Wishing you the best on this beautiful Tuesday afternoon – Take care. :)

  3. katelon says:

    Wow….I think my longest bike ride has been 12 or so miles :) it is amazing to me that you’all can ride that long and hard, let alone on a hot day!!!! I’m so sorry you had a rough trip and so glad you were able to finally give yourself grace.

    Last week was a very rough week energetically on this planet. i believe the battle between light and dark got a huge dark jolt last week and those of us working for peace, within and on the planet, were pushed to the edge. Many people were challenged and exhausted last week, me included.

    Sending on healing to you and gratitude for your gift of insight and dedication to mindfulness and the light.

    • CultFit says:

      Thank you for your support and the kind gift you so graciously sent me … The ride was “easy” for the most part, until my mind and spirit went into the proverbial gutter. I hope you are finding the time to smile and rest this week, take care my friend. :)

  4. missporter says:

    Everyone has bad days, like I’m having today.

    Good job on getting back on track! It can be daunting when those demons surface and they start twisting your thoughts around. Keeping them at bay can be a mental challenge. I know exactly what you mean, and they thrive on self pity and shameless criticism.

    You know yourself better than anyone. And only your true self can depict how to fight those demons and find ways to let go of the grasping hold of dark places. Keep your light shining!

    • CultFit says:

      I owe a lot of thanks to the check point #3 staff! In all open and vulnerable honesty … I was a miserable and pissy wreck! Its amazing what kindness and a smile can do :)